youracliche:

onedayiwillbetheone:

findingherownwayout:

afbjay:

audreyamber:

chichicheez:

I’m quiet around new people, when there’s a big group of people and there’s people I don’t know, I just end up staying quiet or watching other people talk and feeling stupid as I laugh at something they’re saying. I try to join in somehow, but I just end up feeling uncomfortable and stupid and unwanted. 

I get the feeling people don’t like me. If it’s because I’m quiet and they think I don’t like them or something, that’s not it. I stutter, I can’t get sentences out when I just feel so freaking out of place. I feel like i’m forcing it. On the days I talk a bit with new people, I’ve used so much effort that I literally feel drained from acting loud and confident the whole time.

Don’t get me wrong, when I’m with friends i’m familiar and comfortable with, you can’t shut me up :D I guess i’m afraid of people disliking me, rejection. I’m afraid of their opinion of me, of what I look like. I need to fucking get over this, it feels like i’m missing out on so many opportunities of meeting more people. Opportunities wasted.